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When I am alone, I need company & someone to support me.. No one comes to help me except Allah... When I pretend to be strong infront of the world... Nobody sees my hidden tears except Allah...

September 30, 2011

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Dear........
  • my sis, 'afifah a.aziz @ tenggo: tahniah!! akhirnya awak berjaya jugak habeskan study awak :) ace bangga sesgt dgn awak. You are beautiful in your own way. esok awak konvo kan? pakai santek2 taw. nanti abah amik gambar awak senyum teruk-2 tau bole ace update dlm my dumb diary. hmm, sorry sbb tak dpt join kegumbiraan sesama d sana. heh poyo betol. esok ace dgn adek jerit nama awak sambil tepuk tangan teruk-2 dari rumah oke? hehehe adek pun da t'jangkit dgn ace. dia pun nak share demam jugak so ace bg lah siket kat dia. huhuuhu. awak tahu? tadi hidung ace b'darah. i don't know y.... tapi tak pe ace kan kuat. darah siket2 je. tapi kalau budk kat perlis tuh tengok confirm pengsan tak hengat-2. fyi,mlm ni our hero balek rumah. :D
  • my friend, hayati: hari nie hari t'akhir ek? hehehe mesti sedeh kan? mcm tu la yg ace rasa hari tuh. 12 mlm pun belum tentu habes nanges lagi. punya teruk sedeh sbb nk tggl kengkawan. tapi yg tu lah yg kita kena buat. :')
  • my friends, iylia, nad zul, azani, redzuan, hidayah, farhana, syikin: beb rindu teruk-2 kat kome. you should never ever give up oke! ace sokong dr belakang. :) kalau de pe2 yg nak ace tolong, just give me a call. selagi mampu, ace akn tolong.  :D
  • my friend, eqa: dear.dear.dear. gila kental semangatmu.kagum betol ace. bak kata encik fiq  @ kawan seperjuangan, "bukan senang nak jd senang, bukan susah nak jd susah" :D
  • so kawan-2: ace doakn kita berjaya sesama oke. w/laupun d tempat yg berbeza. sayang kome teruk-2. jgn nanges-2 taw nanti tak macho. take care :)
  • cik diyana@ nana; tengok. gila susah taw tak, nak masuk U. so study la bebaek ye. :)





with <3 as always-ace

September 29, 2011

Realiti tak seindah imaginasi


"Hidup terbina antara pahit dan manis. Kalau selalu sahaja pahit, hati akan menjadi rawan dan kalau sentiasa manis hati akan menjadi bosan"  [Hamka]

hrmm rasa lega je bila sembang dgn cikgu kesayangan.. dari demam teruk-2 terus semangat.. huhuhu. sedeh sume hilang.. thanks ye cikgu. :)



bak kata cik nora: keindahan dalam mimpi hanyalah sementara tapi keindahan dalam alam nyata buat selamanya. <3


sayang cikgu teruk-2 

September 26, 2011

night weakness

Give me a call ! :'(

My wish


Have you always dreamed of traveling to cool places, meeting lots of different people, and maybe picking up a language or two?


#I want to study abroad :D


why?

it's fun! :)

#I am a person who loves learning and constantly seeks new challenges.
# I love traveling around slowly and meeting local people in different countries.



Gathering


#1: 24 September 2011
#2: 20:00 - 00:00
#3: Tapak Pesta Sg Nibong
#4: I Heart them :D










yg selebehnya sile lah rujuk mokcik lya punya blog/fb



P/S: eqa & yatt : thanks utk cake, lolipop & presents :D 



September 25, 2011

sincerity #

This is an entry I would have preferred not to have published, but there are limits to what we can control in life, and apparently I have passed one of those limits. 
haha!
And so, I must say here what I would much prefer to say in person.
 Wishing you happy birthday :]
  Just live your life happily and successfully.
 May Allah bless you.
:D

September 23, 2011

Sepatah kata sebisa bicara

Dear diary..
mcm mana neh..nak mintak maaf segan... tapi . . . . mesti kecik hati kan...hishhh mulut nih tak de insurance betul!!! itulah nak cakap tuh jangan sesedap oren je. kan dah susah. 
ermmmmm




oke la tak mo melawak dah.. 
to _ _ _ _ : ace mintak maaf sesgt.. tak de niat nak m'podohkan or what. ace just maen-2 je.. seriously..mgkin ace dah t'lebeh limit kot. :'( 




maaaffffffffffffffffffff sesangatttt....


kdg-2 setiap kata-kata yg d ungkap mgkin m'buatkan org d sekeliling kita terasa 
kdg-2 setiap tingkah laku yg d lakukan mgkin m'buatkan org d sekeliling kita b'prasangka



buntu lah... "sorry" senang je nak ckp. tapi kalau 'maaf" afesal susah sgt nak ckp??
bukan maksud sama ke? 
tapi ejaan tak sama.ahahaha
huh. 
tak de feel lah. 


oke.
p/s:ace brutal tgh sedeh neh atas kesalahan yg dya buat.

Nak bagi dorg jeles aci dak?

Attention please!


Dear reader(s) especially bebudak neh : nad zul, lya, yatt dan cik diyana aka nana :)




Since ace jd penganggur terhormat lagi berjaya, masaku byk d habeskn menghadap tv t'chenta. santai je kan? :D
Niat d hati nak bg nad zul, yatt, lya dan t'utamanya nana jeles. haha
 MOTIF?
sbb seharian ai tengok cite neh...


LIE TO ME
jadi dgn ini kepada bebudak yg namanya d mention tadi sile lah jeles sama saya okes. :) hahaha 
buruk bebeno prangai.


& nana: pulun skrg study tuh.. nanti kang lepas SPM baru lah enjoy teruk-2.  bukan stakat tgk cite korea je, nak gi sana pun bole.  so wish you all the best ye. 


oke lah.till then. 
daaaaaaa~

September 21, 2011

Today was a good day

Dear diary, 

Today was a good day. A really good day.
Wow, it's graduation time again. After lots of sleepless nights, study groups, tests and papers, my brother Ahmad Kamil has graduated from USM with a Masters degree in business administration (MBA).  I can't even explain how proud I am. Congratulations on your graduation and I wish you all the best on your PhD.




sgt lah awesome :D


My day was going well even though without celebration and wishes from my beautiful friends. oh! maybe they are too busy..
:')


then jumpa kekaseh2 hati.. arghhh mmg t'burai-lah rindu aku kat dorg.... 


Today will be a memory
yesterday is a memory drifting away
memories turn into tears,
tearing us apart.

Don’t forget about the past
without memories there is no yesterday.
make every day one to remember
a memory to move on with no pain or anymore regrets 


thanks yea yat, lya & nad zul.

last but not least. 

dear myself,
happy birthday. brutal 18 as always..yowyow
i'm proud to be me and may Allah always by my side :D

Sekalung warkah untuk mama dan abah.


Kehadapan mama dan abah yg d sayangi,


Jasa kalian membesarkan ace…tak mungkin dapat ace balas, walau di himpun segunung emas…di kesempatan ini, ace memohon ampun dan maaf….kerana di sepanjang hidup ini, ace belum lagi menjadi anak yang dapat d banggakan….malah ada ketikanya , diri ini menjadi anak yang sering melukakan hati mama dan abah….
padahal sebagai anak, seharusnya ace menjadi tempat mama dan abah bergantung harap…namun, jelas sekali, ace masih belum mampu memikul tanggungjawab seperti mana kalian harapkan…
Terima kasih kerana menyayangi ace….terima kasih kerana masih sudi membenarkan ace menumpang teduh…selagi hayat ini masih ada, doa keatas kesejahteraan mama dan abah , tak pernah ace lupakan…mengharapkan agar mama dan abah diberi kebahagiaan dunia dan akhirat…seperti mana kalian sentiasa berusaha membahagiakan ace dan yg lain2..

mama dan abah yg d kasihi,

Hanya Allah yang dapat membalas jasa2 mama dan abah pada ace…sekali lagi, ampunkan dosa2 ace….halalkan titis2 susu dan makan minum ace selama ini….janji ace pada mama dan abah, menjelang umur baru ini, ace akan cuba…menjadi insan yang lebih baik….lebih bersabar, walaupun payah…kerana pasti kalian lebih kenal dengan anakmu ini…adakalanya mulut ini lancang bersuara, gurau senda kdg terluka, janji manis kdg terlupa, detik hati kdg prasangka…hingga hati kalian tidak terjaga…. 


mama.. bangga hati anakmu ini ketika melihatmu menyembah Tuhan yg satu walaupun mama tak mampu utk duduk d antara dua sujud seperti yg lain dek kerna kakimu yg terlalu byk berjasa kepada kami (anak2mu) hinggakan kaki mama sakit.. namun, mama masih kuat untuk menghadapinya. Alhamdulillah. ya Allah Kau berilah kekuatan kepada ibuku. 
"Ketika Allah menciptakan seorang ibu, Dia mengadunnya dengan bahan yg istimewa dan tahan lama. Mata ibu haruslah mempunyai kuasa yg bukan sahaja mampu melihat yg luaran, tetapi lebih jauh mampu menafsir dan membaca apa yg d sembunyikan si anak d sebalik wajahnya. Telinga ibu haruslah mempunyai dimensi yg kuat, yg d cipta daripada bahan yg tidak mudah terhakis. 
Telinga itu mestilah kebal tatkala menahan kata-kata pedih yg d keluarkan daripada anak-anak yg d kandungnya itu. Bahu ibu pula d bina daripada bahan yg tidak terlalu keras dan tidak terlalu lembut, agar dapat menjadi tempat anak-anaknya bersandar. Tangan ibu juga d bina dengan bahan yg cukup kukuh, agar kuat untuk menampung beban anak-anaknya ketika bekerja seharian menguruskan keperluan mereka. Di kelopak mata si ibu, Allah menyediakan satu lubang kecil untuk air matanya. Air mata itu adalah miliknya, dan dia boleh mengalirkannya bila-bila pun yg dia mahu sambil mengadu pada Allah akan hal-hal yg melukai hatinya. Air mata tika menahan derita daripada kerenah anak-anak yg sering menyakitkan, ataupun air mata gembira atas kejayaan anaknya." 


Abah.. ace bangga sgt punyai abah sehebat abah. ace m'hormatimu kerna abah selayaknya d hormati bukan d takuti. abah... ace tidak malu utk mengakui abah adalah abahku, kerna tiada sebab utkku b'buat sedemikian...abah, tenang hati anakmu ini d saat abah mengalunkan ayat-ayat Allah.
ya Allah Kau berilah kesihatan yg baik kepada ayahku.

mama dan abah yg d cintai,

Terima kasih,…kerana atas cinta mama dan abah, lahir ace didunia ini….kerana atas ihsan dan kasih sayang mama dan abah , ace masih bernafas, cukup makan dan pakai hingga kini…malah terlebih2….hanya kerana kasihnya seorang mama dan abah pada anak2..
Terima kasih kerana bertarung nyawa melahirkanku….berjaga malam diwaktu ace demam dan sakit…menahan rasa atas keceluparan ku….sesungguhnya mama dan abah tiada  pengganti….Terima kasih kerana membahagiakan anakmu selama ini…Semoga Allah membalas syurga diatas ihsan mama dan abah selama hayat ini….Amin…



anakmu yg brutal,
 ace :)

September 19, 2011

Keluhan hati.

Dear diary,

Everyone says you’ll be fine
pick yourself up and get on with life
that is what they always say
They don’t know how I feel inside

Don't you ever cry          :')


oke then,.

September 17, 2011

Hey, Listen To me!

Dear stranger


Would you let me live in peace 
what have I done to you? 
Don't bother me b'coz I am not bothering you

I have an aim so let me achieve it
I have a dream so let me fulfill it

Just please go away b'coz you are stopping my way
Go away...! Go away...! Go away...!


I'm wondering how to tell someone (who doesn't understand what i'm saying) to go away. he's annoying me.

Ya Allah..... Kau berilah petunjuk kpd beliau. amin..

i'm back :)

Dear Diary..


i miss you-miss you-miss you- :')


oke hye sume.
 alaaaa 2 hari tak online byk hal dh t'gendala. 

  • to azani, nazirul,syazwan & nor fatin : happy belated birthday (15sept). How do you expect me to remember your birthday, when you never look any older?hehehe. rindu korg!!! :)
  • to my beloved brother happy belated birthday (16 sept) sorryyyy sesgt. tak leh celebrate gempak2 d sebab kan adekmu yg santik neh hanya mampu t'lantar dek demam yg sgt teruk. i loveeee you :)
  • to angah tahniah utk esok!!!! sorry tak dpt attend ur convocation ceremony. i heart you :)
  • to kakakku yg berada d inderakayangan nunnnn jauh d sana. good luck & all the best utk this coming exam. i miss you & heart you. :)

with <3 as always
acerrr :)

September 14, 2011

see.. like i said before.

Aku nih cepat sangat terharunye...
amat sensitif bile fasal kawan.


from eqa: 

Jangan Lupa Namaku..

Today was the first day school without her, Ashlah Abdul Aziz.

Setelah hampir 4 bulan bersama di Penang Free School,
akhirnya Ashlah menerima peluang melanjutkan pelajaran ke UiTM in BusinessStudies.

TAHNIAH !..

Melihat Ashlah gembira, saya pun gembira. Saya fikir saya faham perasaan Ashlah yg selama ni setia menanti jawapan dari pihak UiTM.

tapi..

tak dpt saya nafikan rasa sedih dan kehilangan yg mula dirasakan..

To Ashlah:

Thanks for everything that you've done for me.

Wishing you a very good luck in whatever you're doing..



to eqa:


There are some things that I really want to say to you... to express to you... but I don't know how.
Eqa.! :)
mana mgkin ace bole lupa kawan sebaik kamu,syg. Mengenalimu adalah satu anugerah. 
Anugerah yang tidak ternilai harganya. eqa mengajar ace erti sebuah persahabatan. :')
eqa!! sedeh rasanya bila kita dh semakin jauh. 
jarang jumpa apatah lg nak b'tnya khabar. 
seriously ace risau sesgt. 
tapi ace tau walau jauh mana pun kita, kita still kawan kan? 
menyepi tak semestinya ace lupa,
diam tak semestinya ace tak amik kisah. 
truly deep in my heart i reallyy care of my friends. i just don't know how to show. 
Nilai s'buah persahabatan bg ace it's too expensive.  
eqa.. byk benda yg eqa dh wat utk ace w/laupun hal-2 yg remeh. tapi kebanyakannya ace tak ckp pun thanks. hish teruknye ace kan?
eqa.. thanks sesgt..
thanks sbb selalu teman ace... 
thanks sbb selalu bila kita g lawatan ke, eqa salu act mcm kakak ace. tlg amik mknan & jaga ace.
thanks sbb selalu dgr masalah ace w'laupun time tuh eqa sniri ada 1001 masalah. 
thanks sbb selalu care fsl ace. igt lagi asal jumpa eqa je mesti eqa tanya "ace oke?" "life ace mcm mana skrg, oke?" "budk tuh gnggu ace lg" "study cm ne?" see how much you care about me :(
eqa.. byk benda ace nak ckp thanks sbgai tanda ace hargai sesgt kehadiran eqa dlm hidup ace.
dan byk jgak yg ace nak mintak maaf...
maaf sbb kdg2 ace rasa mcm ggl jd s'org kawan yg baek. bila kita dduk dlm group *geng2 kita* ace mcm t'abaikan eqa. sembang punya sembang tgok2 eqa dh tak de. sedeh ace bila tgok eqa jejalan sorg2..... seriously hari tu ace pukul eqa bukn sbb ape. ace just risau je. sorry again :'(
eqa... nasihat ace. 
jaga diri baek-2. jaga mak eqa baek-2. jaga ayah eqa baek-2, jaga kakak-2 & abg eqa bebaek. kalau eqa selalu sakit sape yg nak jga dorg. eqa kena salu kuat tau. kalau bole ace tak nak tgok kat buku keluar masuk GH de nama eqa dah. jgn jumpa doc dah sbb nanti ace jelez.hihihih.. ace nak eqa sihat selalu...
nanti next year punye dinner make sure u jd queen of the night taw.sbb kamu sgt gorgeous syg.
eqa... good luck in your life. ace doakan yg t'baek utk eqa dan kengkawan yg laen. semoga hidup kita sentiasa d lindungi-Nya. ace harap sgt kita bole jd kawan sampai bila-2.


kawan-kawan i miss you guys so much. 


Ya Allah,
Andai sahabatku resah,
tenangkanlah hatinya
dengan teduhan makrifah-Mu.
Andai sahabatku terancam,
lindungilah jasadnya
dengan kebesaran-Mu,
Andai tubuhnya kedinginan, selimutkanlah 
dengan kehangatan kaseh sayang-Mu
Andai dirinya merindu, rindukanlah jiwanya
dengan saat bertemu dengan-Mu
Ya Allah . . .
Jangan Kau biarkan hatinya, jiwanya, 
dan juga jasadnya terpesona dengan duniawi
Khusyukkan jiwanya dlm rukuk dan sujudnya ketika menghadap-Mu
Berikanlah kejayaan padanya d dunia-Mu
juga d akhirat-Mu kelak
Semoga dirinya itu saudaraku selamanya.....
-inspired by Stanza Cinta-




terima kaseh sebab sudi jadi kawan ace. :')

last but not least
ace sayanggg eqa.



daily facts #2


Istilah sains dlm produk yang mengandungi unsur babi


Ini adalah fakta. Mungkin ramai org islam tidak thu bahawa label bertulis "This product contain substance from porcine ' sebenarnya bermaksud 'produk ini mengandungi bahan daripada babi'. Selain itu antara label yg kerap digunakan adalah 'The source of gelatin capsule is porcine' yg bermaksud 'kapsul dari gelatin babi' berikut adalah istilah sains yg digunakan dlm produk yg mengandungi unsur babi
  • PORK- istilah yg digunakan utk daging babi di dlm masakan
  • SWINE-istilah yg digunakan  utk keseluruhan kumpulan spesies babi
  • PIG- isitilah umum utk seekor babi @ sebenarnya bermaksud babi muda, berat kurang 5o kg
  • HOG- isitlah utk babi dewasa, berat melebihi 5o kg
  • PORCINE- isitlah yg digunakan utk sesuatu yg berkaitan @ berasal dari babi, porcine sering digunakan dlm bidang perubatan utk menyatakan sumber yg berasal daripada babi
  • BOAR-babi liar
  • LARD- lemak babi yg digunakan bagi membuat minyak masak & sabun
  • BACON- daging haiwan yg disalai, termasuk babi
  • HAM- daging pada bahagian paha babi
  • SOW-istilah utk babi betina dewasa ( jarang digunakan )
  • SOW MILK-susu babi

source: milaahmad

September 13, 2011

I.y.L.i.a.


why? why??
suka taw bg ace touching-touching neh...... 
nak t'keluar bijik mata neh dek kerna menanges mengenangkan entry kamu, syg.
 i'm so touched.
:')

oke skrg it's my turn.
better you shut up and read this very carefully.
 hahahaha
ai kan brutal jd agk kasar lah cket ye.

meet my sweetheart, Iylia Hanis.

i lolike dis pict.


see how gorgeous my friend is :D

So here's the story
But this story isn’t something you will read about in the newspaper, or see in the 8 o’clock headlines:
I've known this girl for quite a while, over 8 years, and we have been pretty good friends.
She is one of the kindest people i've ever met
she has a great smile
She's always reminding me that things are gonna be alright.  
she's always beside me.
  i really mean it, seriously:
  A friend like you is like no other friend
A friend like you is a friend i dont regret meeting
A friend like you is like a friend i cant scream at or fight with
A friend like you is like having no worries in my life
A friend like you is a friend that i dont want to lose
A friend like you is like being in comfort all day
A friend like you is a friend i always wanted
A friend like you is awesomly awesome
A friend like you is random and funny 

A friend like you is a friend i can tell all my secrets 
A friend that i can go to to tell them whats wrong
A friend like you is like having no dark days because you brighten them up
A friend like you is a friend that opens up my eyes and helps me avoid bad things
A friend like you is a type of friend that laughs at dumb things i say or do
A friend like you is a friend i am proud to call my best friend... 

Thanks for your entry, lya. :')

"You can count on me like one, two, three
I'll be there and I know when I need it
I can count on you like four, three, two
And you'll be there 'cause that's what friends
Are supposed to do."
inspired by Bruno Mars










i <3 you

September 12, 2011

wana & mun :)

Happy birthday sayangs..


Semoga Allah sentiasa merahmati dan selalu berada di samping kalian.
Mun : jaga diri baek2 taw. Sarawak tuh jauh so ace tak selalu tahu your condition spjg mun b'ada d sana.. but the most important thing that you need to know here, i realllyyyyyy care about you. :)
same goes to you wana..  Last but not least.. ace sayang korg! happy birthday again!! much <3 as always. daaa.

Bila aku dah tak b'sekolah

Dear Diaryku sayang,..

boring lah..

"Today I don't feel like doing anything
I just wanna lay in my bed" :)


Arghhhhhhh!!! oke. enough. dah terlebeh emosi pulak. 

nadzuliyliahayatieqaenaazaniredzuan :
wehh ace nak pau mok cik tuh,
nak isi ketam celop2 pok cik tuh, 
nak air anggur + aloe vera  pok cik tangan basah tuh...
ape lagi eh?
haaa nak nasi goreng yg banjir dgn telur2 hancus kat gerai abang yg slalu tak cukup sudu tuh
nak makan 'nasi kandaq' penang free yg tak penah tak ramai orang.. :'(
sooo... 
can you fulfill my wishes..
hohohoho.
neh bukan satu tanda yg ai kempunan tapi ai just rindu je.. 
hikhihkiki.. 

much <3 as always,
acer.

September 10, 2011

My girlfriend

Happy birthday sayanggg....








Happy birthday, dear friend of mine
No other person, comes to mind
That i could wish more happiness for
because to me, you're truly one of a kind.


My dear,archana.. thanks for being my friend
From my heart lots of <3 and best wishes come your way.


Sayanggg,...


Don't be sad. 
I hate to see you cry.
Always Keep Smiling
Even though distance keeps us apart but i still care of you.


beb.


final exam is just around the corner... 
so study-study-study
good luck and all the best :')
i heart you..




till then.
gudnite.

September 9, 2011

Thanks sayanggs



Thank you for everything you did for me….









Thanks for making me smile
Thanks for making me feel glad
Thanks for coming in my life

Thanks for being there
Always being so aware

Thanks for not giving up on me like everyone else...
Thanks for picking me up when everybody was looking down on me...
Thanks for wiping the tears from my eyes when i cried...

Thanks for being near when I needed you here
Thanks for staying so close when I needed you the most
Thanks for the love your rain on me like a dove
Always seeming as if you are from right above 
Thanks for the times you seem to help me enjoy love
Thanks for being here when I need someone near
Thanks for being there 
Also for being so fair 
Thanks for saying hi 
When they all shouted good-bye
Thanks for giving me the time of day 
When all your friends didn’t bother to say hey 
Thanks for every simple words that made me feel good
Thanks for understanding me
Thanks for trusting me
Thanks for your unselfish care
Thanks for teaching me the meaning of friend

Last but not least

Thanks for everything ! 

i heart you


with <3 as always,

acelah a.aziz







p/s: dayat sorry ace tak jumpe gamba kat fb. (ace kan x de) skodeng through kakak punya acc. 

September 8, 2011

kite Pilu

Dear diary.....

wehhhhhhhh aku sedeh la....

sedeh sesangat.........

nak nanges tak kuar la plk air mata nih.

yelah sejak2 jd brutal, aku sampai da lupe cm ne nk nanges.
tapi
 mcm mna nk hilangkn sedeh nie, my dear diary..?


September 7, 2011

Hari t'akhir d sekola semakin m'hampiri...

Dear Dumb Diary,


Tinggal lagi dua hari je aku akn jejak kaki d Penang Free School as a student. sedeh gile.
wehhhh teringat first time jejak kaki kat sekola tuh time nak m'daftar.. hahahaha neves tahap gaban... 
tak caya baca lea balik entry yg nih..
Esok ade game kapten ball. mmg nak have fun habes-2 lah..
To my friend yakni nad zul namanya tolong dan tolongggggg lea dtg sekola esok oke.?! Sebab minggu ni will be my last week.
 I'll miss abg botak, kee & pakcik guard. :)
Dgn rasminya esok aku akn letak semua jawatan-2 yg d sandang. kesian pulak kat eqa. mesti byk keja nak kena wat nanti. don't worryy syg. i'm sure u can handle it. 


Dear diary, 
this is my school.....




Penang Free will always be in my memory as a beautiful and great experience !
so friends, jumpa esok kat sekola. 




till then. 
daaa~